it's time

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Timing . . .

I believe one day I'll fly away. By that I mean I'll start fresh with my new life. I want to be able to forget my past, but not the good memories with family, first love and friends. I also think I have the power to do anything. I just want to believe I can. When can I start? After high school? University? When I fall in love again? Well I'll wait for the

perfect time.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

fall

Don’t be afraid to fall in love. It’s the only thing that matters in life. Do you hear what i’m saying? The only thing. So you fall in love with as many things as you can.

Letter to Beau from Kelley [Country Strong]

Beau,


You once said that love and fame can’t exist in the same place. That’s true, especially for someone as gentle and loving as you. I don’t regret a single moment we spent together. You filled my last days with true happiness. So choose love. Take off and don’t look back, cause there is no one more worthy of love than you. Waylon said it best when he sang to Willie: If you see me getting smaller, I’m leaving don’t be grieving. Just gotta get away from here. If you see me getting smaller, don’t worry I’m in no hurry. I’ve got the right to leave.


-Kelley

Friday, April 15, 2011

The last stand

On a tightrope I walk

Breathing

Looking

Thinking

What shall I do?

This is my last stand

One step can go wrong

Shall I fall to break the tension?

Or keep going?

I shall walk

I shall find the end

Waiting . . .

To

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l

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

damn!

Can't you leave me alone?
I'm so soar.
It hurts to swallow.
Hurts to eat.
Damn!
Can't you leave me alone
SICKNESS!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

here and there

Remember when: Getting high meant swinging at the playground, the worst thing you could get from boys was cooties, your Mom was your best friend, your Dad was your hero, your worst enemies were your siblings, race issues were who could run the fastest, the only drug you knew of was cough medicine, the only thing you smoked were the tires on your bike, skinned knees and paper cuts were they only things that hurt, your toys were the only thing that could get broken, war was a card game, life was simple and care free.



And all you wanted to do was grow up.





Now girls are called sluts. Guys are assholes. Your friends are your enemies, and your enemies are your friends. Now all every teenager does is drink. Or is flying high on one thing or thee other. Everyone hides behind fakeness. Now your heart gets broken cause people like to lie and tell rumors about you. Everything was so easy and to think the only thing we wanted was to grow up. But where does that lead us now? Where does the journey take us?

.

If I die tonight don't be sad. We all had a reason to live for. I just didn't know what was mine. Make sure they don't see the tears. We all are gonna get hurt. But everyone gets hurt once in there life. So don't take it seriously. I just have to say loving you was the greatest thing in my life. If only you knew. Do I still have time to say I love you? Will I be too late? I hope I won't be. I have loved you my whole life. Just say I love you back even though you don't mean. But I hope you do, so I don't have to take my last breath. But it’s too hard to let go of you're loving touch. Don’t be scared I won't be taking the life I lost. I will be here waiting for you to love me back. So all I want to wait for is an "I love you".

slipping

As I feel the cold wind blows on me. I can feel the heat from your skin, but as I look I’m alone. I’m all alone. With no one to talk too. I want to feel your loving touch. Your becoming a blur. Your slowly becoming a clear image. As soon as I get closer, we get farther apart. I want to see you. The smile on your face is slipping away. All I can feel is sadness . . .

this thing

Pain.
Why do we have it?
All it ever does it bad, so why do we need it?
I just want it to go away.
I want to be happy.
Is it too much?
Then one thing leads to another.

Depression.
It effects everyone.
Especially ME.
Why do I feel like this?
Is it because I have fallen?
Fallen into a trap door.


L
o
v
e.
What
is
it?

waiting...

i was beginning to think that all this was fake;
this life were all living in and that one day god is going to jump out and say the hardest part is over. you may continue living but from now on there will be no more drama; trouble; bad thoughts; hate; anger;
but i dont think that is going to happen;
i think were living this life to live and be free from harm;
and when harm comes our way we learn from what comes of it and don't continue making situations worst or more harmful;
but the thing is most of us who live on this place called earth are very hard headed; quite stubborn or just dont learn but we must forgive but not forget and love like we've never been loved before and when someone loves us not to take it for granted. cause for all we know the ones we need to continue this life are right in front of us and we dont always see it'
all i'm trying to say is just be happy and dont worry about the negative things in life; there is more positive things in the life that needed to be thought over; like your future, maybe even a family and many many memories waiting to be unraveled.

<`3

What a crazy thing we have

that it is hard, wanting to tell someone you really like that you may love them, but you are just too afraid of what is going to happen or what he is going to say, so you are just keeping to yourself, but it's getting harder and harder each time you see him, and just then you want to tell him, but you know you can't because you know he is already taken or may react in a way you didn't even
expect, and all just stops talking to you, just because of 3 simple words.
What a crazy thing we have.